Long COVID is kicking my butt. Two days at the office, and not even full days, kicked my butt. Depleted. Or as they say “out of spoons.”
I waw diagnosed with COVID in October. By January, when I was still exhausted and out of breath easily, I was diagnosed with Long COVID. I suppose by now it’s Long Long COVID. I am quite literally tired of it all. I want my life back.
So. I’m home today — working yes — but without the physical stress of dressing and getting to the office.
It’s a problem especially now that I live alone and there is no one to stop me from my madness.
As I write this, the one side of my king-sized bed is covered in new boxes. The government called it an economic stimulus. I called it New Shoes!
I went overboard.
I have written many times about why I have a shoe addiction – those ugly black and white saddle shoes — corrective shoes prescribed by a podiatrist. I hated them. A visceral strong pulse of hate. Loathed them. Stretch that word out –Looooooooooooooaaaaaaaaaaaaaaathhhhhhhhhhhhhhed.
But I’ve never talked about my favorite shoes.
I’ve had many shoes that I’ve loved — worn to tatters. Which ones are my favorite? All of them.. It depends on the day, the outfit, my mood. The depth of my nostalgia or temporality.
I woke at 3:30 a.m. Excited? Not really. Perhaps a bit anxious.
I’m returning to the office today. Of my own free will. Working at home is not really working well for me. I have been completely discombobulated. So on this dreary and rainy morning, I shall adorn myself in clothes, jewelry and heels to go to my office and restore something of a normal work schedule.
Since I am street legal which is to say that I’ve had both vaccines plus the two week period to insure immunity, I should be okay. I am, though, a bit anxious and having second thoughts.
Working from here didn’t work for me, but oh how I loved the commute and dress code. The earlier workday with the commensurate earlier quitting time. The late afternoon naps. But the lack of boundaries has me deeply unsettled. I’ve said it before: my need for routine and normalcy surprises me, but it is very much a need.
I just wish it weren’t raining. I had plans to pack up the computer and printer, the office files and roledex: the accoutrements of working from home. But I’m not about to slog that stuff around in the rain. So that will have to wait until the forecast is less wet.