I discovered while being unemployed for the first time ever if you don’t count the year I had a newborn, that I need routine in my life. It pained me to admit it. I had thought of myself always as a free spirit chafing against the status quo.
And there I was unmoored. Of course, the financial uncertainty and need to find a new job colored the experience, but overall, I learned a lot about myself.
Left to my own devices, I am a train wreck. I need structure and ritual in my life.

The COVID years of working at home just really drove this home. That 18 months or so I was here working is time I will never have back. Wasted. I lost the rhythm of my life. I have been uncentered.
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