Fractured Ekphrastic: The Conversation

Alice R. Henderson is believed to have painted the piece attributed to Matisse titled The Conversation.  The image is that of a dark-haired woman in a black robe sitting in a chair.  Standing opposite her is a red-headed man.  He is wearing pajamas.  The expressions on their faces are familiar but hard to put to words, although it is clear the woman is not happy.

Persephone wants to leave early, and Hades won’t let her. For six months of every year, for centuries now, she has gone to the underworld and hidden herself away.  The earth transitions to winter during her confinement, and the people long for a return to warmth and growth. But Persephone is forced to stay in her chambers and slumber. She is weary of sleep.  Weary of stillness.  Weary of the silence.  

The look Alice R. Henderson painted on their faces is one of yearning and discontent.  The people who line up to view this painting, all of them, instantly vibrate.  They know that look.  They know the feeling is uncomfortable, but they don’t have the words.  They can’t have The Conversation.

They want to.  Oh, how they want to.   Everyone views the painting and regards it as a Zen koan.  They don’t know what that look is, but when they leave, they are transformed.  They make changes.  They leave jobs, they leave marriages, they leave countries.  When asked to explain, they say nothing, or they say, “I don’t have the words” or they say “Go see the painting.” 

They know the feeling is uncomfortable, but they don’t have the words. They know the feeling provokes change.  They have had the conversation and expressed their discontent and expressed what it is they yearned to experience. The conversation between their heart and their brain was silent, but the silence reverberated. It is revealed in the lives they go on to live.

Persephone wants to wake.  She wants to return to warmth and growth.

Note: Alice R. Henderson was Matisse’s scullery maid. 
He noticed her artistic promise when he saw her drawing rather than eating during her meal break.
It has been alleged that Matisse’s departure from the open, spontaneous brushwork of his Fauve period in favor of a flatter, more decorative style coincides with Henderson’s employment at the Matisse residence.
No one is sure how much of what is attributed to Matisse is actually Henderson’s work.

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[An aside: As are many of my stories, essays, and poems, this one began as my response to a writing prompt.

For this one, we were given an image of an older woman holding a candle (I think-we were only given a moment or so to view the painting.]

The image was accompanied by this text: What story did she recreate as art?

There is no Alice R. Henderson. Matisse did indeed paint The Conversation, and it is a self-portrait of the artist and his wife. Matisse is an interesting guy, but so too was his wife. It has been postulated that many of Matisse’s shenanigans were orchestrated to draw attention away from his wife while she was working with the French Underground during the Nazi occupation of France.

This enigmatic piece has haunted me for years.]

The Embers

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It took all the coordination she could summon, but Brenda crawled out of the sleeping bag, unzipped the tent, and was able to stand up without falling down. She had to pee.. 

I hate camping, I hate camping, I hate camping – the refrain was on repeat in her head as she made her way to where she thought the latrine area was.  Brenda unzipped her jeans and squatted, careful to spread her legs wide so as not to get urine on them. 

I hate camping. I hate camping. I hate camping.

As she was making her way back to the tent, she noticed that Mike was still sitting by the fire. It was dark, but still, the situation didn’t look or feel right.  Brenda headed over to check it out.

Mike was sprawled in his Big Man’s camping chair.  His feet were propped on the stones of the fire ring. The toe of his left tennis shoe was smoldering.

She tried to rouse him, but he was out good.

“Mike, dammit, wake up.  Your shoe is on fire.  Mike!”

Nothing.

He didn’t even twitch. 

Brenda looked around and spotted the plastic tub of dishwater.  It hadn’t been emptied after the dishes were washed. She grabbed it and poured the cold water with bits of floating food and grease over Mike’s shoe.

The fire was out, but so was Mike.  Still, he hadn’t moved a muscle.  She felt his forehead.  He was clammy and cool.  She couldn’t gauge his color in this light, but something was wrong.  Really wrong. She ran to the tent to get her cell phone.  Signals were bad up here, but she’d found one spot in the middle of the road where she could pull in two bars. 

She woke Craig and told him what was going on.  Mike was his best friend and had been for 30 years.  Craig raced out of the tent without even pulling on his jeans.

Brenda managed to get a signal long enough to call 911 and for them to lock onto her GPS location.  Help was on the way, but she knew it would take a while. They were deep into the Monongahela. She hoped they sent someone familiar with this camping area. Otherwise, it could be hours before they would be found.  She didn’t think Mike had hours. 

Craig dragged Mike, all 275 pounds of him, out of the chair and laid him on the ground.  He barked at Brenda to get something to use as a pillow.  He was afraid Mike would puke and choke on his own vomit.

By the time the EMTs got there, Mike’s breathing was shallow, and he was shivering — still unconscious.

The taller EMT, the one who had been driving, asked about possible drug use. Craig looked at Brenda, and she at him. Finally, Craig said, “It’s possible.  He’s been in recovery six months.  That’s what we’re here celebrating.”

“What substance?”

“Anything he could get his hands on.”

“Meth?”

“Sometimes.”

“Fentanyl?”

“I never heard him mention that one.”

The other EMT administered Narcan, and Mike bolted up, screaming for them to leave him alone. 

Tears rolled down Craig’s cheeks.

Brenda was just disgusted.

Craig had hoped.  Brenda had written Mike off years ago after he’d stolen her jewelry to pawn. Her mother’s wedding rings were never recovered.

The EMTs were patient with Mike and oriented him to time and place.  Brenda was surprised he agreed to go to the hospital. 

After the ambulance left and Craig put his jeans on, Brenda sat in Mike’s camp chair. Her sympathy for Craig was bottomless, but so was her impatience. Mike had burned every bridge but Craig.

Craig was jingling keys and hollered at Brenda that he was ready to go.

Brenda sat very still and quietly said, “I’m not going.”

“What?”

“I said I’m not going. I’m done. Just done.  I’m done with Mike, and I’m done with camping.  I’m not going to sit in the ER for hours waiting for them to discharge Mike.  You know they can’t commit him, and he won’t self-admit. He needs real rehab.  He sees you as his safety net.  Stop being a sucker, Craig. It’s time for tough love.  Do not go sit there.  Don’t bring him back here. Let him figure it all out. I want us to pack up and go home.  I hate camping.”

The sun was coming up now…Brenda could see the eastern sky begin to turn pink and golden light rim the tops of the mountains.  Birdsong was filling the forest.   

She and Craig silently broke camp. Silently packed the car. Craig’s last act was to put out the fire while Brenda waited in the car. He shoveled dirt on the still glowing embers, suffocating the last bits of the fire.

Still silent, as if speech would somehow break the spell, they pulled out of the forest.

Brenda didn’t know where they were headed.

Scoot

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The kids were so excited to come home from school to find Scoot sitting on the porch.  His backpack was on the floor, and he was practicing the chords for Folsom Prison Blues. Marianne managed to tear herself away long enough to let me know with the required after-school phone call to check in.

“Mom, guess what!  Uncle Scoot is here! “

At that news, I wrapped the coiled cord of the business’s landline around my neck and pulled. I often did this as a joke to amuse my colleagues, but today?  Today I did want to strangle myself. 

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The Night Marla Did ,You Know, That Thing

Marla had been precocious as a child. She had been almost a caricature of the precocious child. Sure in her diction, composed in her movements, confident in her thoughts.  People had wondered at the time what her future held for her.  They predicted great things. President, neurosurgeon, astronaut.  Nothing average for her.

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But Marla discovered boys at 15 much to the displeasure of her parents.  “Boy crazy,” they said with hopes this would soon pass, but never in Marla’s 15 years had she had a passing fancy.  She grabbed on tight and learned everything she could.

In this instance, she grabbed on tight to Dylan Roberts, 16-year-old heartthrob. She studied Dylan like he was a particularly irregular Spanish verb. Dylan was just as taken with Marla for he’d had a crush on her since first grade when she wore that yellow sweater. To his credit, he had some precociousness under his belt too.  Yes, he was the star quarterback but he was also on track to be the class’s valedictorian just as Marla was on track to be her class’s.

Marla took to wearing smokey eyeshadow and ripped jeans.  Her father was dismayed. Her mother thought to say something but then thought better of it. Marla had always been strong-willed especially if pushed in a corner.  Her grades were still good.

The normality of being a 15-year-old girl in love invigorated Marla to ape the behavior of her peers.  She became increasingly concerned with fashion, cut and permed her hair, and spent hours in the bathroom straightening those expensive curls into soft waves.  She was blossoming into a bombshell and her father took to a nightly scotch.  He was worried.  He knew 16-year-old boys.  He’d been one.

It seemed a fleeting moment but in reality had been several months that their studious, possessed, and driven daughter was the popular girl at school, was glued to her boyfriend every waking moment, and earned her first B which did not distress her. “It was just one of five tests, Mama. I’ll make it up. Besides, advanced biology was a mistake.  Fashion consultants don’t need advanced biology.” 

Marla’s mom started joining her husband for the nightly scotch.

Marla’s father decided to have a talk with her.  Over breakfast, he said, “Marla, I would like for you to be home at 7 tonight.  Your mother and I wish to talk to you.” He didn’t know what he was going to say, but he was going to say it.

“Sure, Pops, I need to talk to you two too,” she said spooning yogurt into her mouth.  Marla’s father studied the rusticity of her outfit – flannel shirt tied at the waist revealing cleavage and midriff with tight jeans and a rope belt.  Marla said it was spirit week at school as if that somehow explained the Daisy Mae costume.

At 7 pm, the family gathered at the kitchen table.  Marla took the lead. 

“Mom, Dad, before you start there’s something I want to discuss. I’m turning 16 next month and I want to host a party here at the house.  One with minimal parental influence.  In the basement.  No drinking, no drugs, no adults.  We just want to be able to be ourselves.

I also made an appointment with Dr. Clark. Dylan and I have talked. It’s time I was on birth control.

Marla’s father stood up and retrieved the decanter of scotch and two glasses.

Her mother rushed to the bathroom to throw up.

This became known as “The Night Marla Did, You Know, That Thing.”