COVID-19: Day 82: Early Mornings

Sunrise over cloudy mountain ridge

Enter Creator: Photographer: Nickolay Khoroshkov
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My sleep pattern is really off — even for me.  It’s stress and tension and worry and current affairs.  It’s not quite 5 a.m., and I’ve been up for well over an hour.

For most of my adult life, I was a night owl.  Then I entered the halcyon days of going to bed at 10 p.m. with a book and waking at 6 or 7 a.m.  Then the Evil Menopause occurred, and sleep became elusive.  I’m either past that or have made peace with it, but now I’m stuck on the to-bed-by-8 and up at 4 a.m. pattern.  This is a problem.

It’s even more of a problem now because between 8 p.m. and 4 a.m. I’m up multiple times.  For water, to pee, to stare at the screen, to stare at the wall.  My mind churns, and my spirit is disturbed.

With current affairs being what they are (mayhem), I am sleep deprived.  I punctuate my late afternoon with a long nap, but I don’t think I’m getting enough hours in a row.  My dreams are vivid and, often, disturbing.  Working, writing, and tending to life’s daily chores are hard.

I need some peace, but that seems unlikely.  So.  I need to learn how to navigate this turmoil.  These are momentous times — I need to be sharp.

 

One thought on “COVID-19: Day 82: Early Mornings

  1. My hours are all screwed up..I’ve always been a night owl too..going to bed at 4 a.m. get up at 10..I try..really hard to go to bed at the right time .for me 11:30–7:30..so i can eat regular hours because as a diabetic I need to be on a regular schedule..yeah, right..I am like you..I have terrible dreams..my daddy and son David and ole dead Jack keep visiting me..some good some make me cry when I wake up..some give me a panic attack.and I’m afraid the conditions are not going to get any better..if anything..worse..Trump and his white nationalist cronies are going to take over the country..and we will be in ruins..

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